"do what makes YOU happy", that's what i saw in a friend's profile.

first thought, duh, no shit, genius.

after pondering for a bit, i've realized that how little i truly lived up to that statement.

i put on a fake facade daily to face the rest of the world. you think you know me but i seriously doubt it. everybody keeps a part of them to themselves only, deep inside there where nobody can reach.

i've been so caught up in meeting everybody else's expectations rather than doing things that would make me happy. it makes me sound really selfish, but hey...

maybe i just enjoy slacking off, or the 5am cramming for diff eq, or the hours of computer games i play, or bballing the night before a midterm, or having a very very crappy gpa in UT.

it sounds like i'm giving up on my grade or life or something, but i'm not. of course i want to strive to be the very best i can be in college (no army pun intended).

or do i?

am i just *satisfied* with the mediocracy? it's something i have yet to discover...

sure, go party, get drunk, have a blast, live life the way YOU want to live and have fun doing it.

but make DAMN SURE that in the end, you don't regret a single thing you've ever done in your life.

maybe it's time to change.