i feel that i'm as clueless as the day i was born.

why was i put on this earth? what goals should i fulfill before my time on earth is over?

or did i get here by mistake? o.O

you hear people say "it's good to be alive." not to sound all suicidal, but sometimes it feels like there isn't much in life to look forward to.

go to school, graduate, get a job, have a family, retire, the end.

what can i do that can change the future? that can affect the entire humanity and beyond? that can be done by me and me only and nobody else on the planet?

after all, i'm no einstein, and that's a pretty generous analysis of myself.

do people actually find the (true) meaning of life?

because it seems like it's a lifelong process trying to discover it.

i should be old enough to figure out shit on my own now, but i can't.

i'm not the carpe diem type of person. if you don't worry about it today, you'll have to face it sooner or later. i can "live for the moment" but only to a certain extent.

will i be able to look back on my life and say, "man, that was one hell of a ride, and it was worth every moment"?

too many questions and not enough answers...

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life without a purpose sure is a long one.