so i downloaded this and started watching it. it's as funny as 10 years ago when i first saw it =P

personal goal: no WoW between now and the end of the semester.

let's see how many hours that lasts.

Seether - "Fine Again"

It seems like every day�s the same
and I�m left to discover on my own
It seems like everything is gray
and there�s no color to behold
They say it�s over and I�m fine again, yeah
Try to stay sober feels like I�m dying here

And I am aware now of how
everything�s gonna be fine
one day too late, I�m in hell
I am prepared now,
seems everyone�s gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well

I feel the dream in me expire
and there�s no one left to blame it on
I hear you label me a liar
�cause I can�t seem to get this through
You say it�s over, I can sigh again, yeah
Why try to stay sober when I�m dying here

And I am aware now of how
everything�s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I�m in hell
I am prepared now,
seems everyone�s gonna be fine
One day too late; just as well

And I�m not scared now.
I must assure you,
you�re never gonna get away
And I�m not scared now.
And I�m not scared now. No�

I am aware now of how
everything�s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I�m in hell
I am prepared now
seems everyone�s gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well
I am prepared now,
seems everything�s gonna be fine for me
For me; for myself.
For me, for me, for myself
For me, for me, for myself

I am prepared now, for myself
I am prepared now, and I am fine... again

i feel that i'm as clueless as the day i was born.

why was i put on this earth? what goals should i fulfill before my time on earth is over?

or did i get here by mistake? o.O

you hear people say "it's good to be alive." not to sound all suicidal, but sometimes it feels like there isn't much in life to look forward to.

go to school, graduate, get a job, have a family, retire, the end.

what can i do that can change the future? that can affect the entire humanity and beyond? that can be done by me and me only and nobody else on the planet?

after all, i'm no einstein, and that's a pretty generous analysis of myself.

do people actually find the (true) meaning of life?

because it seems like it's a lifelong process trying to discover it.

i should be old enough to figure out shit on my own now, but i can't.

i'm not the carpe diem type of person. if you don't worry about it today, you'll have to face it sooner or later. i can "live for the moment" but only to a certain extent.

will i be able to look back on my life and say, "man, that was one hell of a ride, and it was worth every moment"?

too many questions and not enough answers...

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life without a purpose sure is a long one.