Thursday, November 27, 2003

ppl think turkey is the best thing on thanksgiving, along with mashed potato, stuffings, and cranberry sauce... but they are missing the vital part of this special holiday, the reason that this day is called "thanksgiving"

i'd like to give thanks to God, for carrying me through this tough year, whether academically or socially. even though i've strayed from You, You never really gave up on me and continued to support me in every aspect of life. from now on i'll try to be a better Christian than i currently am. please continue to help me, because i know i can't tackle it alone.

i want to thank my parents. when i was in high school, i've always thought how "unfair" they could be sometimes. always argued with my dad about the littlest things. but now for the first time that i'm away from home, i've realized how much they really cared about me when all along i'm taking this for granted (you don't know it's there until it's gone). they paid me semi-monthly visits to my dorm (4-5 hour drive from houston to austin) just to ask how i was doing and bring me chinese delicacies that i could not have on campus. now i just realized how ungrateful i've been the past... 18 years. and i'm glad that my parents are so awesome, and i will start to appreciate them much more from now on.

i'm thankful for the best roommate a guy could possibly ask for. he's kind, understanding, tolerant, and helpful in every way. so far i'm amazed that he has put up with me the past 3-4 months. he never complains when procrastination keeps me up till 4-5am in the morning; he helps to provide transportation for the grocery trips; he cheers me up at times when i'm down by either making a VERY VERY random comment or running me over with a banshee in Halo (bastard! =)) for that i'm very grateful.

and i'm thankful for all the new friends i've made at UT, along with the old friendships that i've cherished and rekindled. i'm thankful for a dorm room on the 14th floor with a great view of the tower, for insomniac neighbors that don't mind us sleeping daily after 3am (since they never sleep), for awesome RAs on my floor that are so nice and helpful and eager to assist you, for me surviving the first semester as an EE student at UT (thank God), for the bright stars that i could never fathom when i was in pollution-infested Houston, for my unreliable alarm clock that enabled me to sleep through my most boring classes, for the air condition system that kept the room cool all day long (you can always put more layers on, but there's just so much you can take off >.<), for me getting all the classes i need next semester despite of a late registration, and for everything that went so smoothly for me, and the rugged experiences that helped me to mature as a person.

happy thanksgiving everybody!

Wednesday, November 26, 2003

home sweet home =)

it was a nice 4 hour ride from austin to houston, got a couple of traffic jams, but it was cool since everybody was trying to get back with their families and all. the cops are teh evil. at least 5 or 6 got pulled over for speeding and 1 for DUI. got back home around 8ish. my dad's computer is slow and the connection SLOWER, i didn't mind too much since i lived on 56k for 6 years =) went through my stuff stuffed in my closet, and found some rather *interesting* things ;) went to sleep around 1, ahhhh soft bed and fluffy pillows... missed it so much. when i woke up an hour ago i realized i moved so much in my sleep that i did a 360... good ol' queensize bed =)

woke up an hour ago, and saw my mom made more food (eggs, my favorite!) on the table before she went to work.... so nice of them. =)

Tuesday, November 25, 2003

for this thanksgiving, help the homeless! by clicking here and pick your favorite NFL team, Campbell donates 1 canned soup to the homeless. take 20 seconds of your time and make a difference!

Monday, November 24, 2003

wrapping up physics uthw, cramming for ee302 test, and maybe will start on the extra credit paper when everything is out of the way...

but amongst all, 17 hours till home =)

no, not turkey.

but a whole week of chinese food that i've grown to hate but now eager to indulge.

jcl food can only last you for so long =)

Sunday, November 23, 2003

Morningstar

I saw a star beneath the stairs glowing through the melting walls.
Who will be the first to begin their fall?
Or will we become one?

Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I a ghost upon the stage?
Am I your anything?

I saw a star beneath the stairs glowing bright before descent
and in the morning there is nothing left but what's inside of me.

Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I a ghost upon the stage?
Am I your anything?

Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I a ghost upon the stage?
Am I your anything?

And I don't want to die tonight; Will you believe in me?
And I don't want to fall into the light.

Will you wish upon?
Will you walk upon me?
I don't want to die tonight.


Will you believe in me tonight.

Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I a ghost upon the stage?
Am I your anything?

Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I a ghost upon the stage?
Am I your anything?

Saturday, November 22, 2003

went to slept at 6am, totally forgot about jenny's bday bash at the ice skating place. so when yi started banging on my door at 12, i was tired as hell from bball, sleepy as hell from lack of sleep, and lazy as hell because it was a saturday =) but i got myself up and decided not to miss it. only ice skated 2 times previously, and both times came back with injuried hips or bruised butt. balance was never my thing. but today, I ONLY FELL ONCE! my left foot was moving forward but the damn teeth thing at the front of the shoe caught ice and i tripped, then wabbled 3 more steps forward before landing hard on my side. and 2 other times that i came close to falling on my rear, but not quite. so yeah, that was fun. =)

came back around 4, tried to fall asleep but couldn't. then we went to bowling alley with nick and maritza since it's nick's birthday today. they didn't have too much fun because i was owning ;) then we just grabbed some food at wendy's and chilled before we headed home.

ugh, now i HAVE to do my laundry tonight... seriously out of cloth... gonna stop blogging now and head over to laundry room...

i'm going.

seriously...
got back from 3+ hours of basketball, now my whole body is sore from lack of exercise as of late =/ gotta start play more often and build up the little endurance i had left. on the court i met a pre-med senior, a bellaire graduate who i haven't seen for 3 years, and i could barely recognize him since he changes so much. kept in touch on aim but when i saw him i was like "woa, it's YOU!" =)

rockets lost tonite against the drugdeale.. i mean, the trailblazers. =( but they put up a good fight. now they gotta learn how to close out games.

Friday, November 21, 2003

it was a rather... interesting day for me. first time that i got over 10 hours of sleep on a weekday, so that's always a plus =) played basketball at the rec center with oren maritza shawnee angie christine howard etc etc... first time in MONTHS that i played, man i missed it =( sucked badly (some of the airballs weren't even funny lol). gonna start playing more often now. and the place is so much better than gregory, alot less crowded. time to hone my basketball skills... cept finals are coming up. booooo!

and the night was.. interesting as well. wandering around the campus and doing stuff. you can actually see stars here. stopped by the union and saw a palestinian solidatory committee event, where they sang songs and danced and stuff... except soem of it is in english! i'm not talkign about that specific race or ethnicity, but it applies to all (like the bellaire *chinese* club where 90% of the ppl didnt' speak any chinese) they want to be part some thing that they really aren't at heart... i wouldn't say i "dispise" them, but at least when celebrating your cultural values and traditions, do it right, or at least give effort to TRY to make it right, use your own traditional music instruments (NOT guitars) and sing in your own language, not english; the rest of us all can do that too. geez... i shouldn't be hating on people... okay i'll stop. =)

so yeah... that's my daily rant... haven't been ranting as much so i'm making up for it tonite.

Tuesday, November 18, 2003

monday night... same poop, different day =(

can't believe i just said the P-WORD!!! -_-"

Sunday, November 16, 2003

just got back from HEB. and holy... me and oren spent a total of 130$ today getting all the junk food that could last us 2 months and then some. =)

the shopping trip didn't hurt my budget too badly... considering oren spent 90$ tonite =)

and freebirds got some GOOD burridoes... yum. the 5 bucks was well worth it.

Saturday, November 15, 2003

despite the fact i was so exhausted last night, after i took a shower i was again wide awake. and since oren was doing stuff up late, so i halo-ed till 6:30 am... watched the sunrise! (god this is sad...).

bad decision, since i woke up today at 5:30 pm... =D



Broken

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

�Cause I�m broken when I�m open
And I don�t feel like I am strong enough
�Cause I�m broken when I�m lonesome
And I don�t feel light when you�re gone away

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There�s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

�Cause I�m broken when I�m open
And I don�t feel like I am strong enough
�Cause I�m broken when I�m lonesome
And I don�t feel right when you�re gone away

�Cause I�m broken when I�m open
And I don�t feel like I am strong enough
�Cause I�m broken when I�m lonesome
And I don�t feel light when you�re gone away

Friday, November 14, 2003

finally, my worst week in UT thus far is OVER! man it feels good. but still, think i did horrible on my tests because i just had too much stuff to study/do and so little time to do it in the time available. missed all the flu shot times this week, so had to schedule appointment for next monday... really hope i dont' forget all about it. got back today early since my fridays are easy, and tried to sleep. right before i was in dreamland, fire inspection people decided it's funny to ruin my sole chance of the week to rest and came over to check for fire policy violations right then. =( unable to fall back to sleep after that, so decided to catch up on the episode of smallville i missed this week, so the time was well spent =)

then went shopping w/ oren jenny yi and ken for someone's bday present =) it was more like the girls shopping for themselves, and us 3 guys got really bored (hope they aren't reading this right now lol). the BYOB part was fun though hehe. then we had dinner (bruner for me, aka breakfast-lunch-dinner). afterwards we decided to head over to ken's place and ddr-ed a bit. MAN those ppl are crazy at that game... i was like holy... just got back, and that's my day.

Wednesday, November 12, 2003

just took my 306 test.

good news: the test was hard as hell. so maybe, just MAYBE, ambler will curve it.

bad news: as badly as everybody failed that test, i somehow managed to do worse than the average =(

physics test in 1 1/2 hours and lasts till 9. THEN i'll finally be able to take a break...

... by working on my 302 powerpoint presentation for my robot for my team* till 11-12 midnight

*team: (noun)a term used loosely to represent a couple of hardworking ppl who spend time and effort working their sorry asses off to pick up the slack for the entire group of people assigned by the TA.

time to get physical.... with physics =(

Tuesday, November 11, 2003

so little done... so much more ahead.

i feel like dying.

but i shall overcome all adversities.

cause if not, i'd be fucked =)

scary thing is that i'm used to 3-4 hours of sleep a night... nowadays the tendency to nap only kicks in once a while =/

Monday, November 10, 2003

soooo tired. i used to think that i know what tired is... oh boy was i wrong...

can't wait till this week is just over and done with. so much damn work up my ass everyday this week, and as whiny as this sounds, it's overwhelming.

hope time would pass by faster, so i can just get over w/ all this crap;

or pass by slower, so i can have more time to study for the 1 upcoming quiz and 3 tests;

or stop blogging and get back to work *forced smile*
sometimes i feel like i'm in a dark tunnel, alone. far in the distance, i can catch a glimpse of light marking the end of this darkness. but the light is so f-ing far away and out of reach...

sigh...

Sunday, November 09, 2003

For You

i waited for you
i died inside my own head
and i'd die again for you

i'm faded and tired
completely uninspired
and i'd die again for you

so kill me with the love that you won't give to me
and pack the wound with salt i wanna feel it bleed

i'm searching for reasons
to keep away the demons
and i'd die again for you
i wish you were near me
could feel it when you hear me say
i'd die again for you

so kill me with the love that you won't give to me
and pack the wound with salt i wanna feel it bleed
you wanted me to crawl so now i'm on my knees

why's it always have to be me
that's always left out to burn and
i'll never learn

Saturday, November 08, 2003

stupid registration bar. got my TB test taken care of friday 1:20, and i was able to START registering friday at 2pm when 99% of the ppl already GOT their dream schedule. physics 2 was all full except MWF 3-4pm, and what a coincidence, all the EE312 classes left open are MWF 3-4pm!!! i mean, it can't be TOO hard to be at 2 places at the same time, can it? CAN IT?!? *mumbles* yeah basically i had 5 IE windows open, each for 1 class, and i just kept on refreshing every few minutes praying that there'll be slot open so i could at least take some classes next semester. finally there was a physics 2 class open around 3:28:46pm central time (estimated) and i was like hell yes! ... turned out it conflict w/ my classes so i HAD to drop 3 other classes just to get the damn class, and then BAM, it says the session was full. went back to course schedule for physics and found out some a-hole took the spot that was open =(

so i halo-ed a bit =P

went back to good ol' F5 key around 4:30 after i took my break, and was about to give up w/ just a mere 10 hour for next semester, since my registration ends at 5pm. then all of a sudden, 4 physics slots just opened up! i was like no way... (there IS a God!) fixed my schedule with the remaining 30 minutes i had, and before my registration ended, i got myself 16 hours of class and 2 hours on waitlist. so it was all good =) even though my schedule has gaps like everywhere... and i get to have 8am classes with a hard/boring cal teacher, at least i got the classes i need =)

classes for next semester: M427K, EE312, PHY303L, PHY103N, CC303 (intro to mythology, oughta be fun), GE 208L (for PHY303L), and GE 207K pending on waitlist (for M427K)

so that was as much drama and twists i could handle in 1 day. after registration i took a 4 hour nap =D

on a side note, i got up at 11:20 on friday for my 10am physics class... so god help me getting up 7:30 next semester, cause i just don't see it happening =)

Thursday, November 06, 2003

nooo =(

it was good while it lasted. i for one had fun, and i'm pretty sure i speak for the team. saw some bellaire ppl on the other team, and never realized that they are going here. i gotta say the other team is better, hands down, but we gave our best and that's all it mattered =)

had the ee302 robot class competitions today. since it was double elimination, we managed to get eliminated twice in a row =)

soooooo screwed next week.... 1 quiz, 3 tests, and the usual weekly hw =(

rockets 3-1 =) rooting for the home team all the way.

Tuesday, November 04, 2003

today when i was walking to class down speedway next to gregory's gym, i saw someone w/ a shirt that says,

"SLACKERS UNITE...
TOMORROW."

that made my day. i was laughing all the way till i got to welch =)

Monday, November 03, 2003

The Other Side

i walk into the room
you don't have to scream i can hear you
bad trip, the needle sticks
you get your fixs from confrontation
i try to make it past
i don't wanna get into it right now
can't this family have one day
to get away from all the pain

and through the night i see the light
shining from the neighbor's windows
i dream of life where i'm safe
in a home where i am not alone
some day i will lay me down
on the grass where everything is greener
it always seems so good on the other side

i'm sick of all the heat
you can taste the hate in the air
running through this family, uncomfortably
it's burning me
is anybody there
in your eyes there's nothing to see
just because your dreams have died
don't drag me down, i've still got mine

[chorus]

neighbor boy runs up to me, his eyes all black and blue
i say what happened to you boy, he said my daddy flew
off the hook cos i was playin too loud
i guess he couldn't hear the tv
he said son i'm a teach you a lesson
and then he .... and then he....

maybe it's not so good on the other side
maybe it's not so good on the other side
but it always seems so good, on the other side
it always looks so good .... it always seems so good
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it always seemed so good...

Sunday, November 02, 2003

4-0 =)

Saturday, November 01, 2003

haven't been blogging lately. due to this *incident* that happened to me last week. got my internet disabled for 3 days, and it scared the shit out of me at first, but after a nice little apologizing email, they restored my access. so i guess i'm off the hook now, but for you fellow file sharers out there, careful now =)

parents came over today and just left a few min ago. again brought me a load of homecooked chinese food, so i'm not complaining at all =) mmmmmmmmm. stayed for a few hours lecturing me about life, then we watched UT owned nebraska 31-7. so it was all good =D
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